tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30183835447369614722024-02-06T22:13:04.022-08:00Doodles' BlogQuite simply this blog is a bearing of my soul,random telling of my life. Warning,NOT for children to read.ADULTS ONLY.My thoughts,feelings are not always pretty, my life has not always been pretty, let's face it, darkness can engulf us all at times.This bearing of the soul comes from a middle age mother of four boys ,wife 26 + years, searching for a release, a freedom if you will, via releasing the demons to paper, removing the mask for a peace that eludes me.Doodleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14347441381383968233noreply@blogger.comBlogger22125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3018383544736961472.post-81152995531507132242015-08-17T19:42:00.001-07:002015-08-17T19:42:28.575-07:00Been a long time since I wrote. So long in fact, that I almost forgot how to publish anything. I so enjoyed the recent book I read that I felt I needed to share. I think I will try to write more. I think it will help me to process some of what I've been going through. Also, just in case I haven't mentioned this, I've been creating on the PicsArt app under the name @doodlesmanuel. So, go check out my work. If I can figure out how,I will publish my work here. Thank you for listening to my rantings, it's nice to know my voice is heard by at least one other person....<br />
Best series ever read, and the<br />
best Author is Susan Kelley. These are Kindle Unlimited books, so the $11 you spend to rent 10 books a month is definitely going to pay for itself with this series! Bundled into one large book the<br />
Warriors of Gaviron (books 1, 2, & 3) by Susan Kelley is the best Sci-fi book I've ever read. It's about these "aliens" from Gaviron whose home world was destroyed by giant alien spiders (raynids) while a group of Gaviron's warriors were off-world training. They came home to find their world destroyed, they vowed to find this alien ship, & destroy it: killing these raynids as they went. They stumble upon Earth colonies destroyed the same as their world, & eventually find a world with survivors that matched their DNA. Their new mission was decided to try to breed with humans to allow Gaviron to live on, continuing to fight raynids.The story continues as they travel colony to colony, but the story includes the personal relationships of the remaining warriors of Gaviron, & their fight for survival alongside the humans. This book includes twists & turns I didn't see coming, kept me on the edge with fighting action, sci-fi info, interpersonal relationships of a fighting brotherhood, & some romance as well. The ending is unexpected & a pleasant surprise. This is the best book I've ever read, but this does contain some adult content, so personally I recommend it for ages 15 & up. As always, you must make the decision for your child, but definitely enjoy reading it yourself.<div class="blogger-post-footer">Opinion offered for the betterment of all ;•)
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DOODLES</div>Doodleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14347441381383968233noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3018383544736961472.post-64299756344655880802014-02-05T07:19:00.001-08:002014-02-05T07:19:48.945-08:00Just another dayHave you ever been so emotionally tired the world seemed to exist<br />
outside your current state of <br />
mind. You knew not to look into<br />
anyone else's troubles for fear<br />
of mental overload. I'm no good<br />
to anyone when I'm like this. I<br />
know better than to look into my<br />
past, for the ghosts that haunt<br />
me have more substance to them<br />
when I feel this way, they have<br />
so much more ability to damage<br />
my psyche.I hope to soon delve<br />
into my past, and slay the <br />
demons with ink, and paper, but<br />
for now I must escape into<br />
another's work in print, to <br />
another's world, and hope I'm<br />
able to emerge stronger.<div class="blogger-post-footer">Opinion offered for the betterment of all ;•)
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DOODLES</div>Doodleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14347441381383968233noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3018383544736961472.post-14071589633786942882013-12-03T06:42:00.001-08:002013-12-03T06:42:50.866-08:00Recent email to author <br />
Ms. Colleen Hoover,<br />
I haven't felt compelled to write an author in a long time, but your book, Finding Cinderella, inspired me. The story was phenomenal, but left me desperately wishing for a follow-up novel. I enjoyed the touching, down to earth story.You'd be surprised at how often such stories occur, maybe not as dramatic, or specific, but close.<br />
The following is a brief glimpse into my life feel free to delete, the main purpose of my letter was in the first paragraph.<br />
I was a 15 year old bride, and a 16 year old mother. I kept my son, married, and will celebrate our 27th wedding anniversary on Christmas day 2013 with a 26,14,11,& 10 year old boys to happily show for it. We love each other very much, but our friends were not so lucky. Kids our age,and some a few years older, and one a year younger went through the same unplanned pregnancy traumas.One, a cousin 14, pregnant, was married, and soon divorced (she went on to marry twice more before finding love and two more kids 11 years later), another 16 year old on acne medication, pregnant with an incompatible-with-life child she was forced to abort, was devastated. Yet another two pregnant at 16 to 17, married, living hand-to-mouth as most of us did and still are. Another of my 15 year old friends chose abortion the first time, she also was devastated even though it was by choice, she went on to have another child at 16 (I'm not sure if that was subconsciously intentional through guilt, and sadness, or not) she married a while after the girl was born (the father took a while to decide, he was young too, but finally stepped up to become serious, and financially support her), a few years later she had another that was still-born, she blamed herself (thinking it was punishment for her previous abortion), then a third healthy boy was born, she still works as a waitress at 42 years old, just as her daughter does.Yet another girl,13 or 14 years old went to our church, was raped, and became pregnant by her DAD! She left the community and I don't know what became of her. There were many others but I was not close to them.<br />
Please remember this occurred in the 1980s in a bible belt, small community where you couldn't just go to the pharmacy to get condoms because everyone would know before you left the store. Abortion was considered a grave sin equal to murder by all the churches. One road has 13 churches within 15 minutes of each other on only ONE ROAD.<br />
This is only a few occurrences I knew fairly well all attending the same small town high, and jr high school within a four year span of time. Some adults tried to get the school to provide a place for child care on school grounds with bus transport, or near it so they would be able to graduate, but the principle said it might encourage such behavior and was even quoted as saying 'they've made their bed, now they'll have to lie in it. '. Such statements are born of ignorance, arrogance, self righteousness, and just plain evilness in my opinion. Yeah, real Christian-like in the small community of ------ County, NC. Some of the adults were able to get 'home bound' where a teacher would come to your home to keep you up on school work after your seventh month only during pregnancy if unable to come to school due to complications (I finished 10th grade that way because I had preeclampsia). Other adults provided GED counseling at the library (I got to go to that also later).They were the few who didn't turn their backs on us. My own mom told me I should apologize to my sister for the shame I caused her. My friends shunned me, said their mom's wouldn't let them talk to me! As if it was contagious! I had to get up in front of the church and apologize, but the preacher said we were 'doing the right thing' by getting married. HA! I guess after all these years I still have demons to purge. I worked hard, took night classes at the high school, until the other teen mom I was riding with had to quit to go to work, she didn't have enough family cash support to finish high school, my husband, and I only had one car and he worked two jobs so even at night I had no transport. I eventually worked my tail off, got my GED, worked hard at McDonald's for five years, went to nursing school, and became an LPN (only one fifth of the original students graduated, it was that hard). I was lucky, not many of my friends have had such a great life. These struggles happen every day, the results vary, but one thing they all have in common is that the sacrifice we all made for our children changed our lives forever. My husband never got to go to the NAVY, and I never became the architect, and designer we both dreamed of becoming as kids. Our eldest never had the cash to go to a four year college. The effects of an unplanned pregnancy lasts for generations, unfortunately. I hope you see how your stories reflect our lives, and I thank you for such a moving tale. I have rheumatoid arthritis and am now bed bound with bathroom trips, or sitting up only ten minutes at a time all I'm capable of doing. I have only your, and other author's stories to take me from reality, and I thank you. Please don't make public my name, but if you wish, feel free to use my info as inspiration. I know you would do it justice. I wish I could write my own story, maybe I will some day. I wish you the best. <br />
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DOODLES</div>Doodleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14347441381383968233noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3018383544736961472.post-25159531719973349392013-09-11T07:43:00.001-07:002013-09-11T07:43:27.367-07:00Finally a Plateau In My Life<b>I am neither here nor there, up nor down, neither on a hill nor in a valley.I have stopped on this tilt a whirl, and can finally look around and breathe.Where am I, where do I go from here? The anger of my father's death has receded enough I can see through the red haze that was covering my eyes.You can not imagine what I felt when I found out, not only was he gravely ill, but had already passed into a coma after surgery.The hatred I continue to feel for my mother, and sisters is an insurmountable pain.I have never in my life truly hated another human being, even after they treated me so cruelly, I've always felt there was two sides to every story, and so felt no hate toward them,I simply felt they saw things differently than I did. To keep peace I stayed away, because conflict was not good for anyone, and said I would have to love them from afar. I had not seen them in three years due to my health that kept me bed bound, just as much as to avoid conflict.They knew my health was poor, but no one came to see me during those three years, and in the past(except for once),I was always the one to reach out to them to try to foster a relationship.So for me not to know my father was ill was understandable, but when cancer was diagnosed and surgery recommended, they should have contacted me, when the surgery turned out bad, they should have contacted me, when the decision was made to stop life support, they should have contacted me, when HE DIED, THEY SHOULD HAVE CONTACTED ME!!!!!!! My dad's great niece who is paralyzed from neck down is the one who had her mom (my dad's sister's daughter) to call.Not my sisters, NOT EVEN MY MOTHER called me!!!!! They all knew I loved my dad tremendously and NEVER had words with him, NEVER fought with him.Regardless of our differences, she should have called.Tears are flowing down my face, no matter how much I feel I have almost come to terms with his death,and the circumstances surrounding his death,I find myself with tears flowing freely and a painful ache in my heart.<br />
My grandmother raised me for the most part.From birth until I was walking I stayed with her and papa mouse. MY dad's mom confirmed that before she died a long time ago.She said she never understood why Kathy treated me this way, but she saw the difference in which I was treated.When school started I stayed with Nanny and papa on weekends and holidays, my older sister stayed with my aunt and uncle, not as much away from mom as me, but enough.We really grew up separate most of the time, and so, we never got along.My oldest sister and I are two years apart by mom's first husband who left her while she was pregnant with me. MY youngest sister is five years younger than me,and mom and dad's only biological child. When Ronnie left mom, he took the car that was paid off, emptied the bank account, called her father(my papa mouse) and said he was leaving her, and left her with a car payment,no money, a one and half year old and pregnant according to mom(two sides to every story).Mom married dad when I was one year old.I asked dad once if he could be my biological dad, he said he wished he was, but he was in Vietnam at the time.I was told he wanted to adopt me,and my sister but Ronnie refused to sign the papers.I also heard rumors (from an aunt) that Ronnie questioned whether I was his or not. I also was told by that same aunt that she caught my mom and another man in a bubble bath together while Ronnie was at work. I heard I look exactly like Ronnie's sister who committed suicide. I've never seen pictures of any of Ronnie's family including him.I could have passed my bio dad on the street and never knew who he was.Who knows what to believe.<br />
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I married at 15 years of age and moved into my inlaw's basement, and gave birth two months after turning sweet 16.I never knew what a mother should be like until then, but really my Nanny and papa was my parents though they were the best grandparents/parents you could hope for,I still worshipped my dad(biologically he's my step dad, but he never made that distinction, my mom did though, publicly).But really my inlaws showed me what the ideal parents and grandparents to my kids should be like.They treated me like one of their own from the beginning, we even had separate entrance to the partially finished basement to encourage my family to visit, but they never would,I don't think they ever did see where I lived.You know, we had barely enough money to survive on, and was saving for a home of our own when my mom and sister had a fit because I was not going to have a birthday party for my one year old, so I scrimpt on what I ate so we could have cake and ice cream for my son's party, and they(none of them in my family) showed up, didn't even say they weren't coming.That was a big wall mom erected then and it never was completely removed, though I tried to forgive them, and for awhile I'm sure I did, but now with all the other painful cuts she made,it just brings more attention to the scars that has been there all along.<br />
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I would not have known how to wash/dry/iron clothes, or keep house, or care for my son if it had not been for my mother-in-law and father-in-law.They taught me so much more than that, and still I'm learning from them, thank God.That's enough ranting and raving for now.<br />
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I would like to say that my pain is tolerable right now when I lay still, except first half of the day when it's time to change my pain patch(every 3 days).I can handle that though, about six hours versus days every other day.I'm not having to take breakthrough pain meds for the last two weeks! I'm on track with my humera shots for the last six weeks(shot every 2 weeks).I'm not suppose to take the shot if I'm sick or there's a lot of illness in the house, but even though I had a sore throat I decided I can't postpone this shot, and the cold has gotten worse, but I had to risk it.I'm starting to see some improvements, though they are small, they are big to me.I can walk to the bathroom and seldom stumble from the pain and stiffness, the stiffness in my fingers doesn't last as long in the mornings.I feel a little more hopeful.I just want a few good years out of the wheelchair, just a few, to spend with my family making memories.My two little ones don't remember me when I was freely walking.I want to give them that just for a little while if God will grant me that wish.I want to walk on the beach hand in hand with my husband. MY strength is zero, so I have to build that up, will probably take at least a year.When I walk twenty feet to and from the bathroom I'm tired and achy and weak.I've ventured into the kitchen twice this week, it's about 30 to 40 feet I guess, and I'm very happy about that! I've sat up for 15 minutes once every other day to eat, which I've not done in over a year.I usually eat laying flat on my back.The knots over my sacroiliac joints swell off and on, the right side is constantly with some amount of swelling. They keep me from sitting up for any length of time, the pain is really bad immediately after laying down from sitting up even just the fifteen minutes.This is why I can't just use my wheelchair to get around.Even though it lays back it doesn't go flat, this is why road trips are out.The amount of pain pills required for me to handle the trip makes me nauseous, sleepy, irritable, and I pay dearly later on for the trip, I'm talking days in pain.My family guilted me into a beach trip, with a compromise which I prayed at the time would work.We drove only halfway which was two hours on the road then an overnight stay in a hotel.It was tolerable going down, but coming back Joey didn't want to stay in the same hotel, so he decided to drive a little further,I told him he wouldn't find anything else, but he insisted, that turned out to be a major mistake, because I ended up over three hours on the road without a break.He did make up for it by stopping at a hotel overnight even though we only had one hour left in the trip, but honestly,I could not have taken the pain anymore.The pills simply were not strong enough.I'm glad I went even if I had to stay in the room on some days.I loved being there with them hearing how things went when they came back to the condo all excited.The best treat of all was when Joey's parents joined us.We were so thrilled they were there. Joey and I were even able to go out one evening alone! That was so much more precious than you can know.My condition will gradually declined with periods of remission that for me are simply a little less pain, not true absence of symptoms.I don't know what will happen, how I will feel from one day to the next, but for now I'm smiling. The thirty minutes of liquid fire spreading in my skin every two weeks is worth it for a few days like this.I thought long and hard about writing my story, opening myself up to strangers, bearing my soul, showing the ugliness of my life, and myself, for, yes, I'm human, and therefore not perfect.The conclusion I came to was: if I have nothing else left to contribute,I will contribute the viewing of my soul.The bible says, judge not that ye be not judged.So,until you walk where I have been, be careful where you point your fingers.To quote a cliche... for the single finger you point, there are three pointing back.<br />
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Once again, forgive the typos here's to hoping you get the jist of it.<br />
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DOODLES</div>Doodleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14347441381383968233noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3018383544736961472.post-33745154010497255902012-10-26T04:17:00.000-07:002012-10-26T04:17:12.890-07:00My Life second entryI am now on humera shots.They really started working after two or three months.The problem came in when we went on vacation.I tried to get<br />
Joey to take the boys and<br />
leave me, but he wouldn't.He<br />
needed this vacation, and the<br />
boys did too, but he said if I didn't go, nobody would go.<br />
So I felt I had no choice, and<br />
I thought since I was feeling<br />
a little better I would be ok.<br />
I should have known better.<br />
I wasn't well enough for the long painful ride or the exhausting pace of outings daily.You must remember,I don't go out but once every<br />
two or three months, nowhere.<br />
I tried, but I only went once<br />
to the beach, twice to the<br />
pools during our week long<br />
visit, out to eat probably<br />
five times.That's alot for me!<br />
Well, the big kicker was, before<br />
I left I found out my dad was<br />
sick,I didn't know he was in the hospital, but I had not seen my<br />
family in three years after<br />
an argument with my mom, but<br />
me and dad have never had<br />
problems, so I was devastated<br />
to find out not only was he<br />
sick, but in a coma after an<br />
operation but in the next days I found out he died!<br />
Here I am hundreds of miles away and one of the few<br />
people on my side of the<br />
family that I love has died.You know how I found<br />
out? My cousin told me!<br />
Not my mom or one of my two sisters, but my cousin!<br />
Not even an aunt or uncle!<br />
Sure I haven't seen them in<br />
three years, but dad would<br />
never have done that! Mom,<br />
yeah,I can see her doing it<br />
she is vengeful and mean,<br />
but dad never would have<br />
wanted me to find out this way.I never got to say<br />
goodbye! This is too<br />
painful.I can't see through<br />
the tears to swype so I will pick up the story<br />
later.This is coming from my phone so forgive<br />
the errors, thanks.<div class="blogger-post-footer">Opinion offered for the betterment of all ;•)
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DOODLES</div>Doodleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14347441381383968233noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3018383544736961472.post-16063537949716842492012-10-25T11:12:00.001-07:002012-10-25T11:12:16.236-07:00My Life Chapter OneI'm posting from my cell<br />
phone. So please forgive<br />
the errors, for my phone<br />
does not like to blog,but she<br />
will just have to get over<br />
it, right!I have been <br />
previously undecided as to<br />
whether I would publish info<br />
on my personal,I mean deeply<br />
personal, life.I decided I<br />
would, but only for me,for<br />
I need to get these things<br />
in my head,out. What I'm <br />
about to begin publishing<br />
on my blog is not meant to <br />
hurt anyone, or get revenge<br />
for the wrongs that have been<br />
committed against me.I believe<br />
there are two sides to every<br />
story.I only wish to unburden<br />
my heart, and maybe, help<br />
someone else who is going <br />
through the same thing, to <br />
let you know, you are not<br />
alone.<br />
Well....here it goes.<br />
<br />
Today started out well.I woke<br />
up in less pain than usual,<br />
always a good way to start out.<br />
Things had not been going so<br />
well recently.The beginning of <br />
the year was bad.Got worse in <br />
July 2012.I guess I need to <br />
give you a little info first.<br />
I have diabetes, which slows <br />
me down in and of itself, but<br />
I also have rheumatoid arthritis<br />
(RA) which really throws a <br />
monkey wrench in the works.<br />
The pain and disability from <br />
RA affects everyone differently.<br />
In my case things got bad<br />
fast, but I was misdiagnosed<br />
for years before my foot<br />
doctor, yes, MY PODIATRIST,<br />
figured it out! Talk about<br />
a total fuck up! Yes,I was<br />
pissed! See, the reason an<br />
early diagnosis is important, <br />
is because irreversible <br />
damage it's being done to my <br />
body the longer I'm without<br />
treatment.The reason it was<br />
missed is because I have what<br />
is called seronegative RA.<br />
Meaning certain indicators<br />
in my blood don't show the<br />
usual test results that shout<br />
out you have RA.Many people<br />
have the same thing happen<br />
to them. The medication we<br />
need is not given soon enough<br />
to slow the progression of the<br />
disease, so our own blood <br />
cells eat away at us, destroying<br />
us.Unfortunately, there is no<br />
cure, only a delay with meds.<br />
My job was very physically<br />
demanding, but I loved it.<br />
The more I pushed myself, the<br />
worse the disease became, until<br />
I couldn't take anymore.It was<br />
quit working, or suicide.You <br />
know what I chose.The pain<br />
left me alone, crying in my<br />
new rheumatologist's office<br />
with swollen joints, and a<br />
broken spirit. I was alone<br />
when he told me the brutal <br />
truth.He said I would never<br />
be able to work again. Not<br />
only that, but there was no<br />
cure, and I would continue<br />
to worsen, eventually I<br />
would, quite possibly, be in<br />
a wheelchair.Even with the<br />
brutal honesty,I clung to the<br />
hope that studies show<br />
seronegative RA patients are<br />
often less damaged than those<br />
others, boy was I wrong.No <br />
one knows why people are affected<br />
differently, or why it strikes<br />
at differing ages.Even the <br />
Children are not spared.I<br />
would not wish this on anyone!<br />
My family varied in their<br />
responses, many not understanding<br />
the meaning of the diagnosis.<br />
It affects the persons whole<br />
body, but the medications to<br />
slow the autoimmune disease<br />
down, can be deadly.The doc<br />
started out with low doses of<br />
methotrexate, a proven old<br />
med.He had to continue to <br />
increase the dose to get the <br />
swelling down combined with <br />
joint injections, but my liver<br />
couldn't take it, so we had to<br />
lower the dose.This went on<br />
for years with med adjustments.<br />
If only I could take <br />
Prednisone on a regular basis<br />
I would be in better shape,<br />
but it causes the bloodsugar<br />
to go up dangerously high,<br />
which is in itself a deadly <br />
disease, incurable, damaging<br />
organs on it's own rampage.<br />
When things got so severe<br />
I could hardly make it to <br />
the bathroom,I would take a<br />
tapering dose for a limited<br />
time, it helped alot.During <br />
these years I endured many<br />
side effects,one of which was<br />
more difficult than the others<br />
was the fatigue due to the<br />
diseases and meds.The horrid<br />
pain came close to putting<br />
the nail in my coffin, but the<br />
fatigue isolated me from <br />
everyone cementing the <br />
emotional downfall.Please<br />
don't feel sorry for me, this<br />
is not why I'm doing this, it<br />
is for emotional healing and<br />
it is my hope, through my<br />
self-imposed healing,I will<br />
help someone else.I have <br />
given so much info today I <br />
think I will stop for now.But<br />
I want to place a thank you<br />
on the wind to whomever created<br />
the microphone on the virtual<br />
keyboard which combined with<br />
the swipe technology in the<br />
keyboard allows me to 'write'.<br />
<br />
<br />
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DOODLES</div>Doodleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14347441381383968233noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3018383544736961472.post-2924098868619882912012-10-25T08:37:00.000-07:002012-10-25T08:37:12.529-07:00BooksI am going nuts getting use to this blog thing.<br />
Forgive me if I am sending half posts or typos.<br />
My phone does not work well with this setup.<br />
I couldn't remember if I told<br />
You how great author Nicky<br />
Charles is.You must read<br />
The Mating, The Keeping, and<br />
The Finding.Adults only though.<br />
Still working on writing my own<br />
novel, I'm on chapter three,<br />
I know, pathetic, right?<br />
Well I figure it will take me<br />
at least a year or more.It's<br />
not going to be a short story.<br />
Not.At.All.I don't think I <br />
could make it short, because<br />
the story is writing itself<br />
and it has started out great,<br />
with alot of info to get out<br />
there. The characters are<br />
starting to fill out nicely.<br />
I'm not being conceted, it's<br />
that it has a life of it's<br />
own.It's kindof hard to explain<br />
how a story writes itself, but<br />
mine has, strange ain't it.<br />
It's about werewolves, but not<br />
traditional at all.The story is<br />
important to me, so I'm afraid<br />
if I put it in my blog as I'm <br />
working on it someone will take<br />
it from me, so I'll just have<br />
to wait until it's done before <br />
I can put it out there.I'm not<br />
sure if it will be free, but<br />
it will be cheep if nothing<br />
else.I hate out when an author<br />
charges too much for an ebook.<br />
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DOODLES</div>Doodleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14347441381383968233noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3018383544736961472.post-17864884955325919502012-05-12T20:51:00.001-07:002012-05-12T20:51:31.901-07:00Passing of LifeMy life has been one of passing, my children's childhood passing before me, helpless, and hopeless to stop it, while they slip through my grasp, and grow before my eyes. A life of passing, as time flows through the proverbial hourglass, my youth, my health, and my life passes on into a dark abyss never to be the same again. Next July my eldest turns 25, next month my second turns 13, a teenager in every sense of the word. My third just turned 10, and is already becoming surrounded by the worries of life's responsibilities. My fourth, at 8, is following close behind, though his levity is a balm to my soul. My hopes for my children grow every day, and my amazement of them is only eclipsed by the awe I feel for who they are. Funny, inteligent, couragous, thoughtful, loving, caring, with a heart of gold, my boys are my reason for remaining in this life, and yet I fear I am not worthy to raise these gifts. They are, you know, pure gifts from GOD, and as angry as I am with him, even I have to admit, he has made each one perfect. I can only hope I do not do more harm than good.<div class="blogger-post-footer">Opinion offered for the betterment of all ;•)
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DOODLES</div>Doodleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14347441381383968233noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3018383544736961472.post-35209663683434405372012-05-12T20:09:00.001-07:002012-05-12T20:09:40.846-07:00Julia Sheer - You Will Never Be<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="270" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/pGknIr7Zxas?fs=1" width="480"></iframe><div class="blogger-post-footer">Opinion offered for the betterment of all ;•)
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DOODLES</div>Doodleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14347441381383968233noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3018383544736961472.post-86735206248325989352012-05-12T13:53:00.003-07:002012-05-12T13:53:41.057-07:0050 shades of grayFunny how information comes from the most unlikely sources. I was wanting to increase my internet speed, so I called Timewarner Cable. The lady I spoke with was VERY patient with me as I asked her question after question about my plan, and how I might go about getting the most for my $. As we were working on a solution, we began to discus cell phones, our teenage kids, and soon the conversation touched upon books. Her very enthusiastic recomendation for reading material was a book titled '50 Shades Of Gray' she said she saw discussed on 'The View'. After concluding our converstion, I left her with a request to drop me an email of any other books she likes. I then searched my Kindle for this highly recomended publication, and was surprised at the $30.00 price for the trilogy. Granted, it is in the top 10 list for Amazon, but we are talking about an EBOOK, for crying out loud! I am not the only one complaining either. I then discovered it was being offered cheeper on paperback! Now, that really ruffled my feathers. So, ladies, I did what any self respecting consumer would do, and searched online for the cheapest price. I have not finished my search as of yet, but I did come across the video I have published on my blog. I just couldn't help but share it. I thought it was so hilarious, and so many of us can totally identify, not quite to that extreme, but it was such a clever way to advertise, I have to give it up to the company who pulled this off... well done! If I purchase this book I'll let you know all about it, but so the price is too steep, we'll see if I cave in and buy it, or not.<div class="blogger-post-footer">Opinion offered for the betterment of all ;•)
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DOODLES</div>Doodleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14347441381383968233noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3018383544736961472.post-17949875178815151022012-05-12T13:29:00.001-07:002012-05-12T13:29:27.807-07:00SNL 50 shades of grey skit (good quality)<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="270" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/DW-4Fn-d9OY?fs=1" width="480"></iframe><div class="blogger-post-footer">Opinion offered for the betterment of all ;•)
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DOODLES</div>Doodleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14347441381383968233noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3018383544736961472.post-43957625236641177682012-01-31T12:26:00.000-08:002012-01-31T12:26:20.633-08:00Dark Earth by Jason HalsteadMr. Halstead,<br />
I really loved the world you created in Dark Earth.The characters were believable and the story-line was great. I can't wait until my next payday to get the sequel! You've just gained a new fan! This book was easy to read, youth appropriate, but I wouldn't have minded an adult version either.I am excited to see how the story plays out.This is not another copycat kid's book, this is all new, creative, with depth to the story, and three-dimensional characters you can understand. I'll be reading more books by Jason Halstead! Yes, Jason, your nefarious plan worked.You have another one hooked. <br />
:•)<br />
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Doodles<div class="blogger-post-footer">Opinion offered for the betterment of all ;•)
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DOODLES</div>Doodleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14347441381383968233noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3018383544736961472.post-27785519934991308122011-12-31T04:04:00.000-08:002011-12-31T04:04:52.572-08:00BOOK REVIEW:<br />
"HUNGER SERIES"<br />
By Merisa Chenery<br />
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How can I put this series in simple terms...Egyptian GOD, and his six perfect chiseled bodied 3000 year old EGYPTIAN WARRIORS looking for their destined mates.Sounds fairly simple...right? <br />
Only things are never simple where love is concerned. This is a double blinded date,and if that's not bad enough they have fangs, drink blood and must tell their mates soon after they meet them or things don't go well for our warriors.This is a good series, but each successive book gets just too predictable. Though each mate's story is different, the nuances are just more of the same.The books are way too expensive for ebooks.Don't get suckered in with the initial free book in the series or you'll probably do what I did, which is continually purchase each book in the series just to find out the ending.Like I said...too expensive!<div class="blogger-post-footer">Opinion offered for the betterment of all ;•)
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DOODLES</div>Doodleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14347441381383968233noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3018383544736961472.post-6592508145484819462011-12-31T02:32:00.001-08:002011-12-31T02:36:23.570-08:00BOOK REVIEW FOR: <br />
Always Midnight<br />
By Tiffany Foster<br />
Purchased at Kindle<br />
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If only all of it contained the same original thought that I viewed glimpses of, it might actually be a decent mini-novel.Oh, but shame.There was so much of Twilight's material in this book that it was borderline plagiarism.There was, toward the middle to end, enough good material to let me know the author has some potential writing talent.So use that wonderful imagination I know GOD gave you, and write your own novel, but always proof-read your work before you publish it! ;*)<div class="blogger-post-footer">Opinion offered for the betterment of all ;•)
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DOODLES</div>Doodleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14347441381383968233noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3018383544736961472.post-13894249038446831212011-10-07T01:51:00.001-07:002011-10-07T01:51:14.648-07:00Kindle, Moon-Reader, Nook<p> I just have to tell you about the cell phone app Kindle. They have this new gadget {technical term ;•) }, at least I think it's new, I haven't discovered it before anyway. With ebook readers if you click on a word, some of them, not all, will take you to another site, and give you the definition of that word, then you must press the 'go-back' button to go back to the page you were reading.This is not too much of an inconvenience, if you don't mind losing your train of thought, or waiting for the page to load.This is where I get to my point, and yes, I did have one. The kindle app's dictionary really rocks! I simply point to the word on my cell phone's touch screen, and there it is, a little box with my definition right there on the page I'm reading! Most of the time that is enough, but if I want more information all I need do is press the 'more' button in the magical box, and I am looking at the dictionary page for that alphabetically arranged group of words. Which, also, gives me the option to flip pages in the dictionary, just in case there is the occasionally misspelled word. When I'm ready to go back to reading I simply press the 'go back' button & I am back to the page I was reading.Great gadget! <br> OK, so it doesn't take alot to get me excited. If you're like I am though, you will want a good dictionary at your fingertips for when you find yourself reading out of you intelligence range. :•p This small thing can mean the difference between ereaders you choose. Of course, I can't be happy with just one store to shop in, so I have an independent ereader called Moon-Reader which I use for the pdf ebooks I download off the internet.Mostly I download off of Smashwords for independent authors. You would not believe the treasures I get there, it is superb! Not all are free, but alot are. Check back here with me and I will give you reviews on the ebooks I read. I try to get free ebooks most of the time due to my fixed income, multiple medications, and four growing kids with growing appetites. Many of the ebooks have no, or few reviews, so I'm willing to waste my time, so you don't have to. ;•) I don't mind, anyway, I enjoy reading. <br> Back to the ebook reader Moon-Reader.The reason I like that one, even though it does NOT have a dictionary, is for the various options I have like font shape, color, size,and background choices. I read at night alot, and I don't always want to read with a black screen and bright white letters, so now I can have a green screen and blue letters if I want, and it's free! Just take a look at it, you probably will like it too.<br> Like I said, I shop more places than one. Barnes and Noble's Nook I use as well for the freebies mostly, though I do buy some books, the price at Amazon is usually the cheapest so I have to use Kindle for those. Maybe one day I'll get to write-up the pros and cons to all the stores, apps, and ereaders for ebooks that are out there, but I think that would take a long time.Until then, don't stop reading however, wherever, and with whatever you can!</p> <div class="blogger-post-footer">Opinion offered for the betterment of all ;•)
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DOODLES</div>Doodleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14347441381383968233noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3018383544736961472.post-88501769084908258402011-10-07T00:07:00.000-07:002011-10-07T00:07:25.435-07:00A Reluctant Vampire by Carla Krae<div style="text-align: justify;">
A Reluctant Vampire by Carla Krae</div>
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This was just a short story,but a very good short story.A nice twist on the vampire scene.I was really</div>
getting into it when it ended.Major bummer!I would like to see it continued,but unfortunately Carla has <br />
the worst kind of writers block...her arm is temporarily out of commission.So,while we are wishing for her <br />
a speedy recovery I will tell you a little bit about her teaser.<br />
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It all begins with innocence meets evil,like most good vampire stories.In Carla's world though,the </div>
players are not quite the typical leading characters.The damsel in distress is a dude,and he's blind,but <br />
not totally inept,and the evil villain is a fatal female with some definite domination issues she wishes to <br />
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beginning for a knock out novel.The great writing skills of our author Carla Krae, and her fantastic <br />
imagination can only inspire us...get better soon so you can get to writing,we can't wait to find out what <br />
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happens next!!!</div>
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DOODLES</div>Doodleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14347441381383968233noreply@blogger.com0North Carolina, USA35.7595731 -79.019299732.4620451 -84.0730107 39.0571011 -73.965588700000012tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3018383544736961472.post-2687902390925240632011-10-06T22:54:00.001-07:002011-10-06T22:54:11.854-07:00Isn't technology wonderful!<p>Isn't it grand.....to use technology with no one holding your hand.......isn't it lovely....with no teenager above me.....I can post to my blog......when my kid's a computer hog......just type in my phone......now I don't feel so alone......someone else can hear... me.......when there's no one near... me.........I can talk about my books, complain about my looks, even post pictures I took.......thanks to tech.no.lo.gy.........</p> <p>Just singing & checking to see if I can post to my blog from my phone now. ;•)</p> <div class="blogger-post-footer">Opinion offered for the betterment of all ;•)
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DOODLES</div>Doodleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14347441381383968233noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3018383544736961472.post-33265329284277148302011-10-06T21:22:00.000-07:002011-10-06T21:48:58.211-07:00Abbi... by Louisa RoweThis is a book review on "Abbi" by LOUISA ROWE . <br />
All her life, a local girl has lived with her mom in a small tourist town.Her mom operates a small ironing business out of their small bungalow. She works at a local hotel catering to the rich, and only makes slightly above minimum wage. In comes another rich family staying in the hotel she works at. The eldest son, out for a stroll, views her on her day off reading by the river, and it's love at first sight. Both are young, though adults, their lives quickly become entangled in a 'whirl wind' romance that shoots off like a rocket. They were even to attend a magical ball, but would they get to go together? It was a forbidden love that, very early on, was discouraged by his father, and he was the host of the ball! How far would his father go to break their connection? A man who thought money could buy anything, would he go too far to turn back? Death is definitely too far, but would he do it? This is a story of love growing, in spite of all those around them trying to put a stop to it. I'm warning you, it's a real tear-jerker! The reason for the tears though,will surprise you! Near the end I couldn't believe what I was reading. I remained in denial up until the end. I had a shortage of tissues when I finished this story. This could be the story of the girl next door. It seemed so real to me I had to double check to make sure it wasn't a true life story, but it trully was fiction, or so I was told. So it was with a heavy heart I closed the book, and began my review. You may think you know what is going to happen, but this is one you would never have guessed! I hoped this has helped some of you to decide whether or not to read it. Though the ending is not how I would have written it; still, it is how it should be for it is a story about... Abbi. <br />
Review written by: Doodles <br />
at kghmdoodles@blogger.com <br />
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DOODLES</div>Doodleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14347441381383968233noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3018383544736961472.post-61594721808289976092011-10-06T00:07:00.001-07:002011-10-06T00:07:53.290-07:00Review by Doodles of The Amber Witch by Wilhelm MeinholdThis was, by far, the best book I've ever read! If you can get past the language of long ago, you will be rewarded with the knowledge of a true story rivaling the most sorted of soap operas. The book was written, then hidden, and forgotten for many, many years. Hidden, quite possibly, to protect those in the story around 1797AD and, undiscovered until around 1851AD in a hiding hole in an old church.We almost were deprived of this amazing true story while it's pages were being burned to catch the wax dripping from the candles thanks to an old man with no knowledge of it's importance.Yet, it was rescued just in the nick of time. <br />
This is a story of love, loyalty, devotion, chastity, and heroism of a gravity seldom seen before. Our hardworking heroine was tested in ways surely the devil spent many an hour contriving.Her father close to death, for the grieving of his only daughter, never wavered in the faith of his GOD, and his daughter's innocence. <br />
The evil plotting of their neighbor who, may well be evil incarnate herself, was enough to cause this reader to wish the hottest corner of hell be her home still, and wish sweet release to her poor husband who suffered so miserably. <br />
I must also mention a man of influence, power, and wealth, who must also be described as a scoundrel, a cheat, a murderer, a despicable, deplorable, pitiful excuse of a man, or rather beast to be more precise.This evil creature relentlessly hounded our poor virgin with nothing but lust in his heart, for I feel, this thing was incapable of love.<br />
Do not feel this is a story for the religious only, for this story is of witchcraft, greed, lust, deceit, mass hysteria, war, famine, murder, innocent incarceration, and torture. <br />
I read in wiki answers the following:"Notable Quotations from George Santayana 'Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it.' ("Life of Reason," Reason in Common Sense, Scribner's, 1905, page 284") This statement came to me as I was thinking of lessons revealed through this life story of our poor virgin. She wanted nothing more than the health and comfort of her father who, through greed was insufficiently supported by his parishioners, as he frequently went without even enough food to eat. Still yet, he gave no thought of himself, but of his congregation, and his precious daughter first. <br />
So, do yourself a favor, read this story through to the end. It will have you reading late through the night as their life story unfolds before you.<br />
<br />
The Amber Witch <br />
by Wilhelm Meinhold <br />
through Gutenberg <br />
Ebook may be downloaded for free at Kobo online store, and possibly through other online stores as well. <br />
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DOODLES</div>Doodleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14347441381383968233noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3018383544736961472.post-16578807329577938572011-10-05T20:15:00.000-07:002011-12-31T02:41:35.485-08:00Great books!Do you want to read a good sci fi romance with <br />
action,intrigue, betrayal, & innocence.Do you <br />
want to read one of those books that are hard <br />
to put down; where you must know now what <br />
happened even though it's 3am? Well, I think I <br />
found one. Sci fi is my thing ,& you throw in <br />
some romance,& I'm hooked.Fairies(or fae) have<br />
been portrayed as either fierce or beautiful, but <br />
here you have both and it makes perfect sense<br />
in the book. I found myself falling in love.<br />
Check out PENELOPE FLETCHER at:<br />
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DOODLES</div>Doodleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14347441381383968233noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3018383544736961472.post-7612759299757535242011-09-26T22:41:00.000-07:002011-12-31T03:03:15.529-08:00BOOK REVIEW: "Moon Series" By C.L. Beville Love My Books!Hey! I finally made it back to write! I have been<br />
feeling really bad for a while, but enough of that,<br />
I am fighting, and winning the battle today! I have<br />
been reading many books lately, many good <br />
books that is & have so much to tell you! First I <br />
want to say that the cell phone Kindle App has a built <br />
in dictionary that really rocks! I simply point to the word on my <br />
cell phone's touch screen & <br />
there it is; a little box with my definition.Most of <br />
the time that is enough, but if I want more <br />
information all I need do is press the 'more'<br />
button & I am looking at the dictionary page for<br />
that alphabetically arranged group of words which <br />
gives me the option to flip pages in the dictionary.<br />
When I'm ready to go back to reading I simply <br />
press the 'go back' button & I am back to the <br />
page I was reading.Great gadget!<br />
The latest books I've been using my new <br />
trick on are by C. L. Bevill. She has the most<br />
pleasing imagination.This series has four books<br />
in it so far, she has not mentioned anything on <br />
her website about more books in this line...but <br />
I am hopeful.Yes, it was that good! The names <br />
are (drum roll, please) : <br />
Black Moon, Amber Moon,Silver Moon, and<br />
Harvest Moon. 'Suspenseful, romantically spicy,<br />
surprising twists, steamy, funny at times, and <br />
definitely action packed', are but a few of the <br />
descriptions I can attribute to the author's vivid<br />
imagination in the worlds she has created.<br />
Black Moon starts out with a sexygirl <br />
running for her life & a man lurking in the <br />
shadows turning into a wolf, but it's not what <br />
you think, he's actually trying to help.It seems<br />
she's being chased by...more wolves. She just <br />
gets into more trouble from there! But I think <br />
somehow her grey knight in wolfs clothing is <br />
going to keep her safe and then some, if you <br />
catch my drift.The story just keeps getting <br />
better from there.Totally ADULT entertainment, so enjoy!<br />
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DOODLES</div>Doodleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14347441381383968233noreply@blogger.com0North Carolina, USA35.7595731 -79.019299732.4620451 -84.0730107 39.0571011 -73.965588700000012tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3018383544736961472.post-20223192721776205952011-04-12T21:41:00.000-07:002011-10-06T23:51:18.993-07:00Great APPS!Have you had time to peruse through your android? Many busy people don't. With family, job, or school who has time to<br />
search for the best apps for your phone? Well, when I run across a good one, I'll be sure to pass it on to you, after all,<br />
what are friends for?<br />
Let me tell you about one of the apps I just can't stop using, Nook for android, and Kindle for android.If you like to read,<br />
even a little, then these are two must-haves! You may have to enter payment info., but you can trust these apps.Nothing<br />
will come out of your acct. that you didn't charge.Nook is an app by Barnes and Noble, yes they SELL books, but they<br />
also give books away! Kindle is backed by Amazon, it too is a book SELLER, but also GIVES AWAY books.There are so <br />
many free books on these two sites that I will never run out of award-winning books to read. Yes, I did say AWARD-<br />
WINNING BOOKS! The variety is outstanding, well worth the time.Guess you didn't know your android was an ebook<br />
reader also. Just in case I lost you, an ebook is a book that has been scanned into the computer and now must be read<br />
on a computer, ebook reader, or android phone.The prices of ebooks are much cheaper than paper books, saves trees,<br />
saves space on the shelves, and weight in your backpack.Not to mention all the free ebooks.You can get every category<br />
possible from sci-fi to biographies for free.There are old authors like Plato, and new authors like Charmaine Harris, and<br />
Nicky Charles (my favorites). Your books will always be with you no matter where you are...be it on the computer at <br />
grandma's house, on the phone in the Doctor's office, or on the beach with your ebook reader. And they will always be <br />
yours, you can even lend your ebooks to your friends.<br />
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I hope you can give them a chance, and read a book!<div class="blogger-post-footer">Opinion offered for the betterment of all ;•)
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